NUMB

Numb is the perfect word to describe the way i feel right now, if ever feelings do exist... The usual cry baby can't even shed a single tear drop while watching a certified tearjerker movie. I wonder, is this what happens when you got so tired of hurting that pain doesn't sting anymore?

Agony has reached its end. Pain is no longer pain to me. I don't know what pain is. The sad thing, if i ever know how it feels to be sad, is that I cannot distinguish pain, from joy, laughter from crying....and every other type of emotion you can imagine. Where are you pain? What? You also got tired of me? Come on, bring it on! Bring all the pain to me, because now, I am very sure that it won't hurt. I don't feel a thing. I don't feel pain. Every once in a while,something tells me to check if my heart is still beating...is it? Or it froze and I never even noticed it? Or is it also possible that my heart left me because it has ceased to be a heart. What is a heart? I don't know and I don't know if I'll ever find out.....

Maybe I will...But right now...I don't feel a thing.....